Nothing ever just happens because of chance. Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes I think about my fate, my life, my kids, my career and where I’m being lead in life. And after an in depth bout of thinking I come to the conclusion that I am where I am because of the decisions I made and am still making.
As far as this music goes I take damn near every single opportunity given to me and I run with it. Where some artists I know only shoot for the big opportunities I take the big, the small and all else in between. I feel this is what is separating me from the rest of the pack. That and my work ethic. I kind of look at the situation like hey, every artist can’t blow up major out right like a FloRida or someone (and neither do I want my career to be anything like FloRida, not that I have anything against Flo, but we are two different cats). Anyhow someone has to have that slow rise. That’s the path that I am taking and would rather take anyway. Even though the road is a lot less traveled and the process is rather painstaking the end results are quite more rewarding. I feel a certain way when I’m grinding and using my last few bucks to go to another state or city to perform and bring my brand of hip hop to other regions. Yeah I do this to get a little change, but hell right now the money isn’t flowing super fast, so the respect is that what you must attain first. It is very empowering to go around the US gaining new fans and having people genuinely appreciate what you are doing. Hell I know that I am on the right path after every show when a new fan tells me that they enjoyed my show…and ten buy a cd. Yeah I’m broke, but life is good.
Sometimes I wish my kids could see more of what I am doing, or even after a long night out doing shows I could wake up to my babies smiles (I love my kids sooo much, and as I am writing this blog on this Greyhound bus ride to Chicago I miss them soooo much still). Unfortunately me and their mother aren’t together anymore. I know in my heart that what I am doing is for the further benefit of my kids and that is one of my main reasons for striving. I know if I continually do what I am doing with the intensity and consistency I will be able to live the life I want to live with my kids, just me and my babies. When I win that Grammy I’mma dedicate it to Bodunde & Asabi, they have no idea how they have helped to make me a better person in so many ways. Who knows without them I may have just settled for a fat chick and a horrible job! Fuck that. Thanks kids.
Whew, I’m jus writing..I know. My fuckin knee hurts? A few years ago I was diagnosed with tendonitis and that shit is reoccurring. Sometimes it pops up in my wrist, my ankles, my knees and any other joints where a tendon is! And I’m telling you that this shit is some fucking pain. SO know I’m dealing with my right knee being swollen, sore and throbbing. All the while walking miles everyday to do what I have to do and doing these shows! It hit me last Thursday a little while before I was about to go on stage. I thought to myself “what the fuck”, but hell I can’t let this shit slow me down, and it won’t. I embrace it. I appreciate the pain and work through it. Anyhow, I’m almost to Downtown Chicago, gonna cop some food, call the homie SP, and catch the bus to his crib and then off to Gary, IN to perform. RIP Michael Jackson,,,that’s his hometown. I’ll make the most of it. Love ya’ll. Peace.
OneLove & BlaxLife
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