"I've been working this graveshift, and I ain't made shit, I wish I could buy me a spaceship and fly past the sky" - Kanye West
(Yep FUCK MY JOBS...my last paycheck for two weeks was 213.00...LMAO)
Traditionally..I'm a hustler. A hustler of all sorts. From penny candy to dime bags, during my 28 years on this earth I have done a little bit of it all. Some things that I am more proud of than others, some things that I am not. I am not ashamed of any of my hustling exploits though. Why? Because I could always rely on my strong hustle hand to get me through times of adversity. In the end I'm more ashamed to put up with working low paying jobs in pursuit if a steady paycheck. LMAO...cuz that doesn't happen anymore. Not in this life....man I hate my jobs.
Jobs I say, because I have a few. Seeing that there is a more than likely chance that someone from my jobs will actually read this blog I won't actually disclose where I work, even though most people already know where I work.
I'm not really trippin on the jobs that I work. It's just that I managed to get more than one job so that I would never have a problem having enough money. However that isn't the case, because damnit I don't get many hours to work at any of them. And the less hours I get, the more inclined I feel on jus saying "fuck it"! Lol! Too bad I gotta pay rent and child support! Mama never, ever told me about this mess.
I was talking with my friend Malcolm the other day about how hard it is to pursue your dreams, and he was in the same position that I am in. In Milwaukee with a dream that may just live and die in Milwaukee (because this place is the dream killer), with kids here. One day he just got up and left and since that day he say's he see's things clearly now. I know thats what I NEED to do, and eventually I will. I asked him how he went without seeing his daughter, and he told me that it was hard but he felt he was doing what he had to do to be able to provide her with a better life ( i totally felt and understood that). Maybe I'm afraid to fly, maybe I don't want to leave my kids because when my pops left he never came back. Whatever it is I know in my heart that I can't continue on going to work. Lol! As a matter of fact last year I already quit my damn job! I had some minor successes too, the whole plan just didn't fall in line in time, so that brought me back to square one...working...and this time for way less pay.
Patience is the lesson, my reward will be the blessing, however I'm not stressing, because destiny is manifesting. I'm just waiting on my Spaceship...sing it Kanye!
OneLove & BlaxLife
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